Friday, December 7, 2007

21 Questions (and even more)

Three days ago, the one of the days that I had been dreading had come. Someone in the family gave birth. Not that I was not happy for her but for 8 months since the the day I learned she was pregnant, I was imagining the day she would be giving birth. There were lots of questions I was asking myself like how would I take it? How would I react if someone from the family would say " Ivy, she gave birth to a bouncing baby just today!"? Would I go to the hospital to see her and the baby?... and a gazillion more questions. Questions answered three days ago.

Then I learned that she was in the hospital and about to give birth, I felt excited. I was the first one to tell my hubby about it. I was the one who told him to visit her in the hospital. I was the one who looked excited. Was this excitement was just a facade I was trying to put up?


I could not deny it. I was not happy... for myself. Numerous times I thought that it should have been me, who gave birth. It should have been me...

4 comments:

Milky_Way said...

hi sis, i do now how you feel and its really, really hard. wala lang tayong choice at this point but to learn to accept things and hope that one day it will be our turn :)

just hang on :)

williamanne said...

sis, sometimes rough times comes our way and the only thing we can do is to face it with faith and confidence... i can relate on how you feel, masakit pero its the reality...

just keep the faith and god will do the rest...

Ronnie Ferez said...

don't lose hope -you're still young.

cheers!

ivy said...

@ milky_way, you are right, accepting things makes it a lot easier.

@maanne, thanks for the shoulder. i really appreciate it.

@ronnie ferez, thanks for stopping by. im not losing hope at this point of my life, like you said im still young. i considered this as a challenge and not a failure.

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